Dear Diary #4 (Is Blogging For me?)

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Dear Diary,

This past week has been an emotional roller coaster, with reaching the 1500 mark on Instagram and getting more than 500 views on a blog post, I have been riding this high wave that I never thought would stop. I was happy, I was growing so fast and I couldn't wait to put out more content for every single person that supported me...except this became a problem. I began to do exactly that, I began to post content for those who supported me and I feel like I lost myself in the process. I began to stalk every other blogger on Instagram trying to one up them and even began to question what they had that I didn't have. 

All this overthinking began to feed into my insecurities of not being good enough or not being successful and it has definitely begun to take a toll on me.  I forgot that I am only doing this because it makes me happy and I want to share that joy and inspiration with the world, I forgot that blogging was supposed to be my escape from the world and from all the critiques in my life. I forgot that blogging was supposed to alleviate my stress and give me a sense of ownership that I'd never had. I forgot why I started this in the first place. I forgot. 

So, I did some soul-searching and with the help of some amazing friends I realized that I needed to return to "Me". I want to use this platform to inspire young women of every shape and size , I want to give people an avenue to share their thoughts and feelings and dreams... but I can't do that if my mind isn't where it needs to be. 

This is one of the longest posts I have ever written and I know I am usually fun or playful in my posts but sometimes I want to get serious too. I have big dreams for "TheOdditty" and I cannot wait to show everyone all I have been working on (I say this a lot, but it true). I hope you stick around to watch this journey with me.

Love you all,